You see, I'm kind of like Clark Griswold. Remember in Christmas Vacation when he and Ellen are lying in bed and she tells him he has great big ideas and things don't quite play out like that? That's me. Its not that I'm a perfectionist, I'm far from it...I just want things to be the best they can be. When Clark plans that perfect vacation to Wally World and it falls to pieces? So familiar. I build things up in my mind and get hurt when they don't turn out the way I want.
If I plan a party I'm never happy with the results...we needed more desserts, I wish more people would have shown up..A good party is not enough..I want a GREAT party.
This year I really wanted a family vacation with just us 3 before baby boy arrives and its just not happening. The hubby is working too much and I refuse to travel in June. Yes, I'm pouting. We'll probably take a small trip and that will be fine. Carsyn will love the mommy and daddy time and attention.
I feel like we are outgrowing our current house. I have looked at every home for sale in a 30 mile radius and none of them suit me. The kitchen needs updating, the kids would have to share a bathroom, I need a mudroom, Carsyn needs a playroom, etc.
I HATE being so picky. I swear it will be the death of me. I do not want Carsyn to grow up with pressure to be "perfect" and I hope she knows she's one of the few things I did right. She could be no better. Our kids are perfect the way they are, right? I see no room for improvement. Her tantrums, her days without naps, without dinner? They're challenging, but you know they just don't get to me. Perhaps its because I know I have no control over things like that. I just wish I could let other aspects go too.
How about you? Is your "good" the enemy of your "great?"
Yes Yes Yes. Brian tells me the exact same thing all the time. I am constantly in search of a better way to do things or improve them but I draw the line when it comes to Mason. In my eyes, he is already the perfect boy for me. He has taught me more about letting go and living in the moment and being happy with what I have than anyone ever has.
ReplyDeleteYes! I almost cried reading this, i definitely don't want Hudson to think he has to be perfect.
ReplyDeleteThis post was such a great reminder to me to model for Blaire what I want her to see. I know she's young but she'll learn from watching me. I need to remember that. Beautiful post.
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