I was telling the hubby last night I didn't get as many compliments on my mothering from him as I used to. True, my insecurities aren't as plentiful, but compliments are always nice to hear! He said Carsyn's love for me should be all I need. You know, he's right. She completely adores me in spite of the times I lose my patience with her. If I'm sitting in the floor she'll come and plop herself down in my lap. She'll hug me with both little arms now and I melt.
When the new addition comes along am I going to be able to divide by love equally? Is she going to be jealous of him and hurt by me? Is she going to have the love for mommy she has now? My heart already breaks for her in some ways though I know having a sibling is the best thing in the world!
My number one goal in life is to be a good mother. I lose sight of this from time to time, but luckily Carsyn keeps me in check. I pray to God to give me guidance and wisdom. Please let me adjust to mothering two little babes. Please let them feel equally loved and blessed and more importantly love each other.
I cannot wait to be a family of four! I hope I can live up to the task.